The moments we cherish moment always flash back.
I am turning 24 in less than a week and yet I feel more like I am turning 84.
I have dreamed about this year - my lucky number, in my prime, loving life & living.
Instead it upsets me more and more the state I am in.
I am off balance, confused, joint pain.
I watch others my age living the best life they possibly can and I don’t blame them or hold anger against them. The very opposite I envy them! So much.
I guess I should just be thankful to be breathing and alive.
My blood results this week showed and backed up what I thought was going on.
My white blood cell count had dropped below normal. Full moon 🌕- fun.
I knew my body was struggling, not just heightened pain but cold sore break out and bladder infections are a given.
Another upsetting issue -cold sores. Just when I want to look my best for my birthday ( or as best as I can.)
My monocytes the group of white blood cells that fight infections in the blood had dropped below normal.
My haematology levels are just normal but have dropped from last week. These are the cells in the red blood cells which fight infections in the blood.
They combine with proteins to repair cells.
The Lyme is obviously trying to stop the proteins from being used by the body to aid it’s healing by treating the minerals and proteins as pathogens and my body is now feeling under threat by the goodies that aid recovery so that the immune system stays suppressed and the Lyme can thrive.
I explained the other day how Coxsackie feeds on selenium another superoxide that the body needs to chemically bond with protein to aid cell repair and control thyroid and over your overall metabolism which is of course important for absorbtion of foods is just normal!
Selenium is found in sweet potatoes, green veggies and soy products which of course I eat a lot of.
Balancing everything is a full time job.
And one hell of a headache. I have to say though - I am becoming so knowledgeable about all the proteins, minerals and chemical bonds that go on throughout the body and what I need to look out for.
I nolonger look at the blood test and just look for ! mark, I look at what’s dropped, increased. Checking what I know will be being affected by the Lyme and be able to relate to the symptoms I am suffering with my results.
I just hope in time the fight gets easier.
It’s all so manic- life never stops for a moment. I love being busy but getting my body to engage in what it needs & I want it to do is becoming ever more a challenge.
My house move is going well.. all is coming together.
I am looking forward to hosting friends and creating memories there.
January is going to be one hectic month, lots of exciting events and lots to do.
( as always ) .
I am proud to announce that lymedisease.org have published my January Blues poem on their website to inspire Lyme sufferers after the festive period.
Keep the good vibes in our hearts always.
Thank you for all the lovely comments and well wishes on my Instagram especially lately. Some extremely inspiring fellow warriors.
We keep fighting!
S
Xoxo